barrage

i don't want this to end...
don't leave me alone.

i'm so frightened.
i don't want to face the reprocussions of my actions.
i'm not a little girl anymore and my lies are now accompanied with uncontrollable consequences.

i don't want anything bad to happen.
i don't want to lose you. i've already lost myself.
i'm so scared.

pressure & resistance

excited adrenaline...
my face is numb; my lips tingle.
eyes wide and staring, looking down....

skepticism

intellectually, its quite the compromise.
romantically, i couldn't ask for anything more.
physically, i am respected and satisfied-
and find myself intoxicated by your kisses.

i'm absolutely terrified of my heart breaking.
i can't find anyone like me that likes me...
[i hope this is promising.]

"i like your thoughts"
i'm trying something new.

inconspicuous turmoil.

arms pull me in dozens of different directions.
coy and confused.
thoughtful and humble.

averted eyes...

my oxygen flow becomes painful.

i wish not to speak with you any longer,

i apologize.

i'm living a dream;
i am patiently waiting for reality to sink in.

there is no longer anything holding me back.
i could be loved. i could be held.
the possibilities are endless.
ah, again with temporary affection...
i've grown intolerant and somewhat spiteful.

i am content for now...
but future emotions remain just as
unpredictable as they are inevitable.