its not a condition. its not a disease.
i'm not exactly sure what it is,
but i have it.
i have a sixth sense that allows me
to know when i'm about to relapse.
spirit, please stop bothering me.
i'm fatigued by your existence.
often times, i'll see it coming.
often times, i'll do nothing to prevent it.
most times, when i see it, its too late to catch.
i'm currently in a high phase.
perhaps next week, i'll be in a low.
its exhausting.
